to [jce].haha sounds cool to post something on the net on 29th feb.like.err right.

man.its been a freaking long dayy.
start with yest-
//went out with [daryl] and [char] to get [mich]'s present at citylink mall.
//dropped by church for captain's ball.and got picked up by my mummy.
//went to play at AMK methodist.kinda screwed up.and everything came crashing when my mum told me that my ex-piano teacher was there?.at the point i screwed up?.freak!!.
//went to [mich]'s party.dang.it was.boring?.im positively sick of bbqs.to [dom].NO bbq for yr birthdayy.we'll think of something else.
//am home and [yu] called and talked a lot.haha.i like the.hmm.stories yu tell me.nice nice.sometimes relating to the past is like so fun.talked till.420.like.freak.got church in 3 hours' time.haha.

todayy-
//go church.and man.the worship sounded screwedup.and yes i found out it was!!.and was really distracted.
//the sermon i wasnt really listening?.dunno what's wrong with me.
//planned to go out and stuff.and we got freaking caught by [pastor kc].like shiit.i pretended to be on the phone and got let off.
//waited for [min]'s personal driver aka [ken] and we+[mong] went to pp mac.[dom] was hmm.getting a counselling session.and it lasted for eons!!.
//went back to church go library and read a book.like freak i wanna like.borrow it but im not a member.like f*ck what crap.
//went out lunch with [gigi] and [kc].brought [mian] there and dropped her with my parents after that.went like this whole gang to buy soccer boots for [dom].and like.aww.they ARE nice.and [kc] kept rubbing in the prices of the adidas sale i didnt go.and freak.i wanna superstar.
//went to [dom]'s place.and man.7 very much grown up pple and 1 nearly grown girl in a 1500cc car is a wee bit squeezy.feel bad sitting like on auntie [eileen]'s lap.and i should be like weighing a ton.aww.
//did stupid things like sprayed impulse in both rooms that he might be sleeping in.haha.hope yu dun land up sleeping in the living room tonight.like cmon.it doesnt smell that bad.talking bout smells i smell of lavender todayy.ahhh.the new shower foam.
//i painted [dom]'s nails!!.hahah.took them out except the one on the thumb cos it looks pretty.grins.heyy man.yu better start keeping yr nails pretty.GO FOR A MANICURE!!.
//watched them play soccer.and yups.went OVERTIME.like cmon i like feeding mosquitoes there.haha.went crazy and did crazy stuff.and my auntie saw me?.she was like.what yu doing with such a freaking big group of guys??!!!.haha.oh well.
//go my [nai nai] house.[en] yu pang seh me!!.ahhh.anyways wasnt that bad.my [nai nai] told me she dreamt of me having a really bad boyy boyfriend??.and she was hopping mad.haha.oops.budden i assured her that im single.grins.

[dom] yu din do yr dare!!.haha.oh well.find another one.haha.say what i dare yu me.yu dare?.crap lahh but.haha.just for fun.aww.cannot think cannot think.hahaha.

running off.heyy im still waiting for yu to appear online!!.where yu??
ta peeps.

ahh ok.im posting my results here.no hurling of abuses and no gloating.
its reasonable results considering how i studied and how i did and how i screwed up and all.
here goes-

english//B3
ss.geog//B3
emaths//A2
amaths//A2
chem//B3
bio//B3
f&n//A2
chinese//A1
L1R5//13.L1R4//10.ELR2B2//10

nothing else to say.i can make it to temasek poly and im fine.grins.
ms [a tan] tell me must go there and be top student.haha.
finally got face to see mdm lum next time when i go back.

cedar did very well this year.everyone was freaking ecstatic.ahh.
and all the teachers were happy.

friends did not bad.cmon im proud of ALL of yu peeps.grins.

was out till bout 1145 yest.didnt wanna go home.my legs were tired out.walked around orchard like crazy.like.ps to far east to heeren to wheelock to orchard mrt to wisma to wheelock to eunos to newton to home.haha.
met up with loads of pple.met even more down the road.haha.hmm was with [sa] and [wei] at ps.then alone then met up with [mern].then [dom] then [jce].grins.then met [pei] and go home.

to everyone.thanks really enjoyed yest.
tk care peeps.

oh yes.did i mention any time back?.
my wrist hurts like hell.*hint*.

talk about insomnia.i cudnt sleep last night.watched tv till 3.45.there are good shows on tv even so late.grins.

-aww.i dunno.stuff is just so.painful.
___things arent the same anymore

im confused.what is this?.
stripped to the bare minimum

whatever that is coming laters.please.everyone.stay calm.dun do anything yu might regret.
-im getting paranoid.aww i miss him..

i miss affections.
if i never have it at the first place.i wun miss it.
rights?

get ready for reality.loads of pple to report to.dang.*pray hard*.
to all peeps getting results todayy// all the best.

ta.

stuff to do-
// upload more images.
// fix [rach]'s blog.
// straighten out my life.

to [dar]: thanks for talking to me and agreeing to pei me tonight.grins.
to [dom]: thanks for being sensible.and it sounds stupid but.thanks for hurling vulgarities at me.

sorry everyone.wasnt in the right state of mind.my life is in a mess and i dunno what to do.
let go.let God.

i wonder when friendster is moving to a much err.faster server?.aww the wait is so killing me.

-countdown to release of results// 1 day.

going out laters.and like freak what can i do before i get out??.i wanna listen to some freaking noisy music.
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh.my mum is playing peaceful music and i cant overrule her.time to go bloggie surfing.

im not forget my dream of going bintan to chill out.anyone wants to join me?

yu know those imood stuff?.freak man.i can never use those or i will never finish changing them.
PMS??.goodness i wish it is.

-the results the results the results!!..i hate feeling screwed up.so feel like learning from [dom] and grab a few can if they have any around.rights.like as if there is anything alcoholic at home except benedictin DOM?.or what freak yomeishu.
that whiskey i tried that time suddenly seems very appealing..

i cant wait to get out of my house like SOON.i wanna enjoy tomorrow.before reality is gonna hit me.hard.

ok like finally i get to sit down and like.write again.

reached home and made a cheese cake.we're all too bored.grins.
feel empty.-dang like something's missing.

results are confirmed to be out on friday.either time to celebrate or to cry.both starts with a C.and the meanings are so different.
finding places to go after the results.i dun dare to think.

i dowanna think i dowanna think i dowanna think.
im a wreck im a wreck im a f*cking screwed up wreck.

man.cant actually believe i stayed overnight to at my cuzzie's place to watch soccer?.haha.we were like really freaking bored.and like i finished two books of hers.like books of hers i read like eons ago.the whole night she was like 'hui2 gu4 tong2 nian2' ahh.haha.

so far it has been fun.saw the ripcurl watch at flash n splash at citylink too.and freak.the nike wrist bands.YU owe me!!.haha.the red one is freaking nice.thinking what's with my obsession with red.appeared in church last week in red sweatshirt red pants red shoes red socks.hope its not turning sadist or what.anyways.its like.cheap?.grins.$8.40 for 2.woohoo.

dang dang dang.suntec has a lot of stuff to see that i didnt even know of.feel freaking suaku.
-thinking bout the comp mic [sam]'s talking about.just gotta see how my allowance goes.
bill this month is like 3-digits.bam.

gotta run.going home.bbl.

i feel f*cking guilty.

its just my mindset?.damn.sorry to make [yu] feel guilty too.
-cos of what some pple has been doing.or has done.i get prejudiced.
i have a right to get angry.cos they hurt someone i love.and i realise that God is trying to get to me abt showing mercy.dang.it hit a wee bit too close to home.
feel like my heart is hardening a bit.i dun cry that easily.but that makes me feel the pain in there more.i cant let it out.thus explaining the phrase.
ouch.my heart hurts.a lot.

find that some rships are strained.
talk abt this gurl hugging everyone ard me except me.i gave out the dun-touch-me vibes?.
then this other guy.he comes to talk to me.expecting a cheery and nice me.and i gave him attitude.
dang.now.[her].fine im over her ripping my bouquet.im trying to like.forgive?.
tell me whose more broken.i can safely say [yu] are.a lot of bu4 fu3 in there.its eating me up.help.
f*ck the whole f*cking world.everything sucks.
-learn to forgive..its gonna hurt more.i cant bring myself to it yet?.i better start soon.

i scratching the skin cells out of my skin soon.freak.
get me out of the house soon.leaving to meet up with my cuzzie.i love my cuzzie.grins.

i need retail therapy.someone with too much money gimme some to spend?.

get out.get out.get out.
im out.

my tml never came.grins.was busy at the slackers blog.whee at least it is done.
go check it out peeps.

yesterday was..hmm.
-cut hair with [ct] dear.aww i miss talking to her.
-then we went over to orchard and walk around.ate tako pachi.and a rice ball.
-met up with [dom] and [kenneth].
-[kenneth] looks.hmm.presentable in his nice shirt and pants.haha.and freak i didnt know that even toys R us has dinner and dance.can only imagine a lil tea party with barbie dolls.grins.
-walked around.[dom] bought hugo woman.*nothing to say*.and then we went around all the really ex shops and appear rich.grins.like emporio armani or something.haha.saw a jacket cost a 4-digit.haha.it was something bout [kenneth] wanting to buy a tux.haha.and these two guys were bent on buying totally useless yet expensive stuff like a leather jacket.tell me bout it.a leather jacket at zara costs a bomb.
-we sent [kenneth] off at toys R us.haha.yeps then [dom] and i walked around.(siti went off like eons ago.poor girl gotta get home at 5).walked wheelock.shaw.went hunting for his x-trainers.and dunno what.he is kinda determined to buy the 99 bucks roxy watch.which was really nice.but hmm.some look on my face told him no.so he didnt.and what? i din even say anything.anyways he being kana scolded by his cuzzie is bad enough.i dowanna make him feel worse.
-watched him had dinner at BK.by then he can already see that i am..not happy??.ok im not happy.but im living fine rite?.loads of stuff makes me not happy.but man.they are my stuff.and he has so much stuff already and i dowanna trouble him.im here to help him not he help me?.hmm.i think i kinda lost my.purpose?.man it was supposed to two way.rites?.but now it seems like im giving.not getting much.*when yu give dun expect anything in return*.he deserves more help than he gets.
-*painful*.[ct] remembered my err.wound.come clean with him and tada* he said.what yu are doing to yrself i am doing it 10 times worse to myself.aww.that hurts freaking much ehh.to me nonetheless.

//yu better not break yr promises k?.im trusting yu dun.

not writing anymore..im tired.of life.ciao.

i dun have time to write!!! dang.ill come again tml.

anyways.main stuff.
-we won we won we won we won we won!!!..
first time in cedar history?? ok i shall make this official.
Cedar Girls' Secondary School has won in South District Footdrill Competition 2004 the titles Best Commander and 1st place.

enough peeps?.
dunno maybe cos i wasnt in that good a mood.so i wasnt that freaking excited.
and ahhh yu peeps.dun cry le!!.still got nationals ehh!!.

didnt go for yf todayy.didnt feel like.for some reasons..
svc was..i dunno.long?.cudnt very much conc cos of some stuff.
dang.I NEED HELP.
went to j8 with [dom] [gigi] and [pei].walked around.
then came home.and haha.feel so accomplished.[dom] can play fur elise part 1.whee.haha.

then go [nai nai] house.commemorate my great grand ah ma and my ah gong's death anniversaries.not sad stuff anymore.but hope to see them in the future.grins.

i have nothign to say le.uploaded more pics.
ciao peeps.

its kinda weird i have to admit.to enter od once again.
so far yet so near.its like meeting up with old friends...
nevertheless i was there for a purpose which i cant say here.man..

what's it with my dreams these days?
i dreamt for her todayy.ripping my bouquet of roses for my juniors?.
awww it sucks badly.i was crying and all.
felt like.why is she taking what i love away frm me.
damn..this is bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad.

i dowan to talk about it anymore.
my life is getting screwedup.
- i have i manmade open wound and i trying to aggravate it.
- my wrist is crap hurting again.
- my bills are gonna take my next month's allowance away.
sooner or later i am like gonna get down with my migraine and get sent to the hospital.

life sucks like f*cking hell

and i hate myself.

.scratchmarks.

havent seen these kinda titles for a long time huh?.
dunno.is scratching a kind of self mutiliation? bam.
anyways last night me was feeling kinda horrible so i start scratching this spot on my arm.
had a rough edge on one of my nails.so just kept on doing it on that particular spot.and like fine.now i have an manmade wound on my arm.its hurts tho.its suppose to hurt anyway
seems like i scratch off my skin cells and now its down to maybe the uppermost layer of blood vessels?.dunno larh.
suck at this kinda topic for bio.

the meeting went on fine.and suddenly i realise that all the sirs and ma'ams in hq are humans too!!.
like as if i dunno that.but it just occurs to me.like they are just like any other teenager in sg.feeling freaking wols.

talking to [wes].what's wrong with me??!!!.first it was [ja].and now its [wes].hmm.dunno.just trying to help.
realise this epidemic that is sweeping thru sg?.pple are losing their purpose in life.and see no point in living.
homosexuality is one that is rapidly spreading.and talk about it.self-mutiliation sounds like its catching up very fast.
no one can do anything?.wrong.
God is still in this world.and He aint finished with His work here.
He wants pple to pray according to His will.and then.He'll work wonders.
God rawks.

-check out the photos up.think err yu need to sign up at imagestation before yu can view?.

kk going back to cedar laters.to check out their fd.
still have to vacuum the house.this is my life.

take care peeps.bye.

to [yu].hope yu're doing fine.rem k?.he happy she happy yu happy i happy.tk care.

i have a 'terrible' dream.too scary.and freaking impossible.
but it'll be nice if it really happens?.damn i'll freak out.
and its like.so real..
must be cos yest was [ja]'s bdae.

anyways.to [yu].im gonna miss these late night chats very soon.*sniff*
suddenly it feels like we are very transparent to each other.feeling honoured and yups.

hmm.officially quit sch le.gonna miss my classmates.
esp the sports carn pple.yu all rawk!!.haha.
to [fiona].[priya].[ct].[cai].[marc].[hao].[jus].-yu guys rawk!!.
to everyone else in 1s09.-happy enduring the spider.and have fun!!.=)

dun wanna write anymore.
-got bad feeling my migraine might come back.
if it doesnt improve in these two weeks.my dad's sending me to the hospital.oops.

okok.shud run.
to [jce]-sorry dear!!.all in the name of fun.we love yu still.*hugs*.


ta peeps.

heyy.yu MIAed!! lOlx.just like yu conked out or what?? get back to me.old mama here is worried.haha.

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ok.i was freaking bored yest.so i ended up like jioing my cuzzie out to orchard.whee.haha.went to my auntie's shop and bought a necklace.*wondering why i made that choice on THAT one.*
anyways walked around.and yep had quite a good time catching up.she's hectic at working and she can like name everything in cold storage.*shudders*.
i dowanna ever work in a supermarket..haha.

yea then she came and stayed over night.haha like we forced her to.oh well.
so we spent the night watching tv.and haha my room's getting very comfy.grins.

hmmm.thinking am i like possessive?.just dowan pple to snatch away anyone i love?.
sucks lahh.it just feels weird.

stuff to do//
cut my nails.they are getting on my nerves.
go be done with my withdrawal form.
get to sch and see [chia].*roll eyes*.

-hungryy wanna eat soon.byeeee.

ripped from friendster//

Do you cry often//
oops err yea i think so.

Do you often cry in front of people or alone//
most of the time alone

Have your friends ever seen you cry//
yea i think so.

Have you cried today//
nearly did.*keeping quiet*.

Do you usually cry for a long time//
say hmm an hour?.lOlx.

Do you get really red when you cry//
haha yea adrenaline rush.

Do u cry when you were happy//
haha everytime we win fd comp.grins.

Have you ever been someone's "crying shoulder"//
hmm.yea.

Have you ever hugged someone because they were crying//
its kinda like a reflex.hugs goes a longer way.

Have you ever had a shoulder to cry on//
hmm.i cant rem.i dun think so.cos im always crying alone.

Have you been hugged when you cried//
no.aww.now i feel deprived.

Do you cry during movies//
unfortunately so.i kinda take everything seriously.

Do you cry while reading books//
haha i rem!! wuthering heights.haha.

Does music make you cry//
if God's involved.yes.

Have you ever been called a cry baby//
nope.i dun intend to start too.

Have you ever tried to stop yourself from crying//
hmm yea.haha.i shudnt.cos i ended up getting hyperventilation.

Have you ever cried in front of a teacher//
aww.that was cos i was gonna miss her.

Does this survey make you wan to cry//
err.like.no?

Do you cry when you are physically hurt//
cos it hurts so much?.yups.talk abt going to the chinese physician with a sprained ankle.man.he makes yu cry.

Do you cry when you are scared//
scared of?

Do you cry when you are mad//
nope.anger management.

Do you cry over bad grades//
haha that is the last thing i will cry over.grins.i hope.

Have you ever cried over spilt milk//
err no.

Can you make yourself cry//
nope.pple make me cry.

When was the last time you cried//
a few weeks ago.

Have you ever cried because you were sad for someone else//
that is nearly always the case.

Do you have a favorite crying quote//
God bottles up your tears.and when yu cry He cries with yu.

Have you ever cried for anyone who wouldn’t cry for you//
i have been crying for someone who nv cried for me?

Will you cry because this survey is over//
right.boohoo.lOls.

ouch.my heart hurts.a lot.

had a long talk last night.and aww.it circled a few hard facts and we had a hard time facing.
the truth is the truth.no one can deny them.even when it hurts like hell.its the truth.
gonna get a hard time letting go..

have a lot to say.cant rem most of it.
my cough is getting bad.urghs.

am i caring too much?.i dowan to think too much about it.
and like.haha i feel like i own him?.jio who also ask my permission.
but glad he ask.at least he doesnt do anything stupid.
feel honoured to be at least a part of his life.and crap why am i saying all this?

think i will be going to like posting a lot of goodbye msgs to yu.wham.
-to [yu].just wanna let yu know.whatever yu do.im still gonna stand by yu.right or wrong.good or bad.cos yu are my friend.my dad.and err.dorothy?.grins.yu rawk.ilu.

photos are up!!.whee.not all done.and yea.still on it.
i have loads of time.

-[dom]: can post [dorothy]'s pic up??.grins.pls? its not up yet.but pls??

didnt go for yf.just didnt feel like?.had a feeling that the worship is like kinda screwed up?
nv wanted to ask anyways.

wham.the feelings are rushing back.i dun mind them.if its not bothering me?
ITS NOT BOTHERING ME.

[cai] and [ct] thinks that [dom]'s treating me bad.like huh?.they're positive that i like him.haha.
truth is like.cmon i even love him.its just in what sense.im determined to keep this rship as pure friendship as possible.
NOTHING ELSE.
and treating me bad?.that's the way i want him to treat me.
and like what's wrong with me.he aint taking advantage of me.and he aint taking me for granted.
what more can i ask?

svc is weird.[jce] dear gave me a rose.haha.sweet!!
and she returned the white rose.but it died a terrible death under [kev]'s hands.
screamed at him.haha.good good.
the pink rose is going to die.its like.[kev] nearly snapped it.ahh.

ok hahaha i found out something!!.[dom] remind me to tell yu something.haha.dunno what's yr rxn gonna be.but.haha
we'll see..................

ciao.byeee

ok night//

went out.and ha.got quite some stuff at seiyu bugis.was only later i realise that seiyu j8 had so much more selections and better ones too.bam.
went walked around.hmm.i dunno.mixed feelings.

saw [mern] and gang.i seriously dunno what the f*ck is going on.internal struggles.
dunno why that word came out.it came out anyways so it shud be meaning something.

met up with my class peeps.aww.its like.i love [siti] and [cai] so much.

and i cant bear to see anyone i love being sad.either i feel useless or helpless or something.
but every cut they make on themselves cuts into my heart.for fun and for what nots.anything.
everything is interconnected

stuff screwed up-
// burnt my arm yest.left a scar and very proud of it.
// woke up late.[shan] was even later.
// my bank account is hitting an all time low.
// my expenditure is going crazy.
// my talktime has hit 6 1/2 hours.
// my msgs are hitting a 1000 soon.
// i missed my usual bus stop leading to home.
// pigging out.
// extremely sensitive.too sensitive to everything.*paranoid*
// put my usual ear chain.and my ear started bleeding again.when will this ever stop??!!
// im still suffering from a running nose.and i cant smell parfum properly when i go parfum shopping today.
// gonna lose my voice again.and i am singing tml.

my class is lovable.everyone's trying to figure who is who on msn.man its freaking difficult.ahh.haha.
some stuff just makes my day.

and heyy.thanks for the parfum.it smells great.grins.
ciao and thanks for the nice dayy.


byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

-add on:

hey hey liane!!.haha surprised to see yu yest.haha well hope yu're enjoying yrself on vday!!.tk care gurl.

hahahhaahhaa.friday has been real fun.hahahahahhahahaha.
first i didnt go school.went for poly open house.same old tp.just nv went to see [kor].
arghs.feel so bad.
-so sorry [kor]!!.*hugs*

then [jon] and i like went to tm.checked out the shops.
bought miniature bottles of hugo man and hugo women.gave it to him laters on at night.haha.
then we went to buona vista.met up with [jin].go MOE for some enquiries of some exercises.
and took a bus to NUH to meet [bel].got to NUS med fac.and like.that place is freaky.everywhere everyone is studying.
and the place is like...i have nothing to say kinda stuff.
anyways took a long time to get the flowers.[jon] and [dav w] bought like 4 sunflowers and 2 roses.
[jon] in the end got me these 2 kinda pathetic white roses.but its sweet.grins.
someone said.if HE is a sensible guy he'll get me flowers today.right.as if.for one thing it isnt even a date.
who cares..

then we met up with [mern].([dav w] joined us at NUS).and [jin] went off for his driving test.
met [jce].she gave us roses.of which we all forgot about in the end.urghs.sucks rites?.hha.
yea we went to citylink to meet [dom] and [jin].had dinner at pizza hut at suntec.haha.
it was really fun.esp when we found out something about [jce] and *ahem ahem*.haha.
had a good time teasing her and stuff.and we had a good time catching up.
-anyways [jin] passed his driving test.its theory anyways.*roll eyes*

then we split.[jin] and [jce] went home.[dom] and i went to church.
[dom] caught sight of [rach l] like twice?or more?.
anyways.he was very bothered cos of some reasons which i dowanna say here.and yea.
i felt really helpless.but yea.prayers do work.and i guess.God somehow prompted him to ask me what i will do if i were him?.
-there was a freaky awkward silence the whole mrt journey-
yea.so i like told him.didnt feel like i had the answers.but HS in me answered.
-happened quite a few times where i have no idea what im talking but in the end they all sound very much sensible and what God would want me to say.
*thank God.
feel kinda in tune with the Big Boss now.just gotta learn to not only speak to Him all the time.but to listen to Him too.

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went to cedar this morning to see them train.fd pple might have a chance of winning.they just need the confidence and the right spirit.man i love this point of cedar that makes us stand out.spirit
anyways finish le and i came home to slack.and pig out.*what's wrong with me??!!!*
this lil girl came and yea.ahh.she so freaking cute!!.haha.anyways she like 2 years old and her name is [charis].aww.
will take a picture of her next time and post it here.whee.i realise i can email pictures to my email and get them in my com.
feel kinda suaku.but at least i know now.grins.
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off to town laters.vday!! woohoo.

to jce.dom.jin// love yu guys.yu made my day yest.*hugs*

ta.gtg byeee.

didnt go school again.
man this totally broke my record for the past few years.haha.even the 5 days dun go sch straight one.haha.

hmm its kinda weird.i din really realise that there was so much competition going around in church?.it sucks to a certain extent.and most probably people aint going for the right reasons anymore.[dom] then reasoned that that's the reason that he wanna leave.cos he wanna focus on God.and there are too many distractions le.
-is it time for me to leave too?

suffered from a mosquito attack last night.nearly wanna like spray my whole room with baygon or something.

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twinkle twinkle little star
how i wonder what you are
up above the world so high
like a diamond in the sky
twinkle twinkle little star
how i wonder what you are
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did a lil remix on it.haha.had a good time talking last night.
-some stuff sucked.but we still yea.tho its draining.but worthwhile.

hey hey.rem wor.its the end le.

sch sucks.i wanna like.get the withdrawal form and hand it up.think that is like the only thing left that i owe the [spider].
lOlx.
love the people in sr.esp s09.yu guys rawk.
hope everyone gets somewhere better after the results are out.
and i dowanna work in a supermarket.anyone needs tuition??

ciao i dowanna write anymore.

already got my phone connected and running..now i am wondering whether i can like upload pictures??.
my phone is running out of space..help.

i cant rem what else i wanted to say..ahh sucks.
should go do some homework le..bye.

my IE hung.and all i typed disappeared.urghs.

//didnt go school today again.didnt feel like going.
//flunking my maths test.couldnt concentrate.mainly just cos i didnt have enough sleep.

went out yest night.haha.hmm kinda fun.went around trying all kinds of parfum.haha.
glad that my nose is getting sensitive to smells.haha.should start appreciating them.
bought for him a wallet.haha.and he is like so overwhelmed and haha.he got me a bottle of parfum.haha.
sweet!!.and the parfum is very very nice.=)
thanks a lot.love yu lots!!.haha.
had quite a lot of fun.and yea.had fun seeing him go try on clothes and stuff.
even on sun.hey!!.change yr wardrobe!!.haha.
yu nv realised that how good looking yu are??.grins.haha
gonna load up the pics that is in my phone soon.that is if my cable will just connect with my phone??..urghs.wanna kill myself.spend like 78bucks buying it.and it doesnt work.feel like knocking myself on the head.urghs.

vday's coming and like.there's so much that is gonna be happening..wun be going for most of it tho.
life is starting to like rock.but in the end.who knows.
so feel like quitting school.haha.just dun wanna study anymore..

-My Immortal//Evanescense-

I'm so tired of being here
Supressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time can not erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you screamed I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me

You used to captivate me by your resonating mind
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time can not erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you screamed I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me

decided to come again.hmm felt like long since i last blogged.sayy like.3 days?.*shakes my head*.

lots of stuff happened.let's see.

thurs// didnt go sch.spent the whole day cleaning up my table and room.got my new room.whee.now i have my own room.grins.

fri// had several bitching sessions by some teachers.sucks.had loads of hw to finish up by next week.urghs.

sat// went back to cedar for redx orientation.hmm.i have nothing to say abt the games.haha.yea.like i joined back HQ.*what's wrong with me??!!!*
// then talked a lot to like [yihui] ma'am and my sqdmates.[lawrence] sir came and talked to us.he took over [doreen] ma'am.so he's like.DDO?.what the.
// went to jam at church.got [shan] along.whee.kinda cool yea.
// then went for cg.ehh mood swing i think.urghs.
// went to church to ka jiao the band prac.but in the end me was like.playing.cos [janna] cudnt play the songs they chose.and [dom] ended up playing the bass too.didnt go very well.[aar] disagreed on a lot of stuff me and [dom] put across.so its like we gotta freaking pissed at him.anyways.i was playing halfway and my wrist started hurting and all.like.urghs why now??.took a break.then borrowed [dom]'s wrist guard and continue playing.wahh damn sad.

ehh din know [dom] was such a sweet guy.haha.so concerned over my wrist.wondering it is just his hangover?.dun say anything.okok we are friends and its rite to care for each other.end of story.
yea so just say thanks alot.=)

found stuff to do on vday.

- s09// someone confirm whether we ARE having the class vday dinner?.

should go off.over time.and my wrist still kinda hurts.boo hoo.

ta peeps.

sayy.im back.for good.[mum] decided i am given half an hour everytime only.

sports carn was kinda screwed up.i so wanna kill myself so many times today.
+ my head is still hurting.[ma] say its muscle aches.will last a few days then after that will be fine le.
+ we did a 3.8 today??!!!.anyways [ct] and i walked and talked the whole thing.haha

im tired.im not planning to do any homework.i wanna sleep

good night.

hmm i might just be not here for a freaking long time.say a month??.nah i cant bear that.maybe a week or so.i hope.
i didnt go sch again todayy.migraine?.went to see chinese physician.and man he gave me a freaking good time screaming.ahhh.i dowan go there anymore..

my uncle is getting me the sim card replacement and helping me buy the data cable for ma t610.whee so excited.haha.

-had a good cry last night.dug out a lot of stuff that got buried inside.to [jon].i love yu too.
determined to get right with God??.-narrow roads are hard to walk on.what's more this one?.pray that my perseverance will outlast my ill-disciplined human nature.-

here's a nice phrase i got out on sunday svc.just imagine-
..hands that flung stars into space..
taken from a old old song..the Love of God i think.

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Have faith in God when your pathway is lonely
He sees and knows all the ways you have trod
Never alone are the ways of His children
Have faith in God//Have faith in God

Have faith in God//He's on His throne
Have faith in God//He watches o'er His own
He cannot fail//He must prevail
Have faith in God//Have faith in God

awww this made me cry so hard yesterday.
getting hooked on hymns?? man these songs are called hymns not cos of its music quality but the trueness and pureness of its lyrics.and talk about songs like 'how great thou art' and 'great is Thy faithfulness'.they bring worship to a climax.and talk about a beautiful ending.
-start appreciating hymns people.they ARE lovable.

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should go off and recuperate.my head and wrists and shoulders and back..all need a break i guess.ok gtg.

ta peeps.

i so wanted to update yesterday..but i reached home at 11.and my mum will scream at me for going online so late and i was tired......so yea.

morning was church..haha.yf was good.the worship was AWESOME.
before svc started [mong] aka.big-mouth asked [ken] 'are yu going to [min]'s house later?' and woah.i wanted to give him a punch!!.but i didnt anyways.its church.[min] was so angry and soo sad.she cried like str8 away.and [ken] was like totally blur and have totally no idea what's happening.poor guy.
during svc we couldnt conc at all.all of us were like tired and sleepy.i was with the headache still.so in the end [ken] and i played with the bluetooth and stuff.
[janna] agreed to lend me her sa uniform.and i agreed to lend [jce] ma cedar uniform.

after church a lot of us went to heartland.and ate yoshi.then i bought the bananas+marshmallows+chocolate.-mental note: owe [dav w] 4 bucks.[cher] 5 bucks.

[min] [ken] [dav w] and i went to [min]'s place to prepare the bbq food.(she decided to tell him in the end.good thing she did.he was the main chef and MAN.the food was superb.)
then we hanged around.[min]'s sc frens came.and.ahhh.all of them are soo.bia-tch.i mean they might not be.but on first impression they are.and things they do.like HELP.
cedarians are so much more innocent suddenly.i love cedar!!.
was fun and all.lemme recall the attendance..
//churchies- me.dav w.aar.jon.cher.no2.tong.mich.rach.tls1.tls2.tls3.daryl.jce.dom.ujin.
//the tekong pple- nic.hanyi.
//sc girls and their bfs- cindy.ting wen?.frederick.donna.kenneth.
and the obvious like.dav r.min.ken.and sheng en.

woah realise its kinda lot of peeps.
the desserts are good.my bananas!!.haha.
think everyone lost their marbles.there was a phenomenon where the guys esp.[ken] and [dom].they went ard kissing other guys.ahh.its crazy.poor [daryl] and [jon].
[ken] i would understand.
but [dom]?.is anything wrong?

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slept at 1am last night.woke up at 12nn todayy.
watched tv and stuff.got rush some hw laters.
my sim card like.spoilt.anyone wanna get me.msg me at 93648428.

ta peeps.