.bah.its the last day of the year.

.like freak.where did the whole year go??.still can remember how it was on the first day of school or something.and how it was at tropical nite last year.
.and now its shanghai night.BAH.

.i aint gonna do any reflective essays here.cos i havent found the time to and all.
.and i guess no one ever wanna read them either.=P

.nothing happened since i last blogged except that i slept.
.then this morning at a freaking early time of 1020am.ok i am not a early riser.10am is still early.this mysterious lady called and asked for [mum].
.then got me like suspicious.like.who have my hp number?.and like would call my number for my MUM??.
.so after that i couldnt sleep anymore so i woke up.
.[mum] was speaking to that dear lady in english.like.woah.cant be someone from my school rite?.
.went to freshen up.then came out and my mum disappeared.oh like she went to the market.
.anyway she got back.i asked her.and the mysterious lady is like.[gigi]'s aunt.(-_-)a.

.fine.then i did chores for my mama.and i landed myself here.ha.
.shanghai night laters.[ganma] should be going.and [ahgong] is back.like woah.finally.for GOOD.cant believe he's finally back.been too long already.like.6 years??.

.nothing else to say.except a note to everyone.
.dun bother clicking on my links.they dun work.and i am trying to figure them out.so just bear with it yea?.

.that's all.ta.

.cut my hair.

.no diff but.heck.
.sunday was ok..oh.watched pirates for the 3rd time.cant deny that its a freaking good show too.i got my black shirt only on sunday morning.borrowed from [janna].couldnt sing well cos of my cough.*frustrated*.

.saturday was..funny.we had our high tea at marche.then [sam] came with [dom].and like how long have it been since i last saw him?.anyway he looked.ok.so yea.anyway he came on sunday.to play bass.like.finally?.haha.happy la.but mean like.its his own choice.only thing to do is to support him.
.back to saturday.finished the high tea.then we were walking around.then we saw [bigbro] and [mich].like.*tada*.now EVERYBODY will know very soon what happened.i was with [aar] and [jon] yu see.
.anyway we had ice cream at swensons.and they 2 had dinner.so yea.we went to church for band prac.and its like.quite disastrous.but.at least we finished.then the cough came in.urghs.

.today woke up at 12.for the first time in this whole holidays.
.laze around the whole day.watched quite a lot of tv.and like nothing else.
.life's boring.

.tml's shanghai nite.helping out in the kitchen.now i can put rat poison in everyone's food.hahahaha.
.nah i aint evil.
.ciao.

.sick of blogging?.

.sometimes i dun see the point of blogging when the whole main point was to let the whole world see what yu are writing.
.anyway.here's what's on yest:
// went to [aar]'s place.had quite an informal cell group.
// pizza for lunch.did stupid stuff.had mee goreng for dinner.[jon] cooked.
// [mern]'s freaking and i dun dare to talk to him.
// went to [ahma]'s plc by taxi cos we were running late and was raining heavily.
// got a swatch watch from my uncle for christmas.
// watched 'home run' like finally.too political i think.tsk tsk.
// arrange to meet up with [jac] on monday to cut hair.

.woke up today when [no3] came into my room to watch pokemon.
.then heard uncle [pat] coming at 11.so dragged myself out of bed.
.they came when i just washed up.[gigi] tell me [dom]'s slping.
.like what's new?.
.they had lunch here.and yea.talked to [gigi] and stuff.aww.i miss those days where we just dowan to leave each other's place cos of the computer.same way we miss yu [dom].urghs.

.thinking of getting a new template again.*bored*.
.high tea later with voc7.man how long had that been.and yea with aunt [jenny].
.cant imagine what to expect and all.
.band prac later at night.man its freaking last last last minute.service is tomorrow?.

.was browsing through that 159 comments on blogskins bout singapore.
.aint really understanding why racial issues come up.
.true sg aint perfect.but at least the govt aint corrupted.and we generally live in peace.
.we can just voice out our opinions.cmon.shouting it out on the net counts too.
.someone ask PM Goh to like browse the nets for bloggies?.
.social studies did me good.sg lands me up here.being more fortunate than most kids in the world.im contented.i thank God.
.suggestion: start visiting other countries and see the restrictions and conditions those pple live in.

.my two cents worth.grins.

.scratched myself?.

.it sounds funny rite?.but im having these long nails.
.and they are pretty sharp and all.accidentally scratched pple.
.so i was in the shower.and i thought.
.wouldnt it be so nice if i could just scratch that jerk.
.was thinking how much pain there is gonna be incurred on him.
.so i tried it on myself.
.it was painful for awhile.but other than that nothing much.
.left scratch marks all over my arms.looked like i cut myself.
.like since when did i become sadist again?.

.christmas service today.
.the whole place was packed and all.
.[dad] told me some are like.occasional christians.
.come only on christmas, good friday and easter.
.not my role model.ha.
.exchanged loads of prezzies.got my hands full.
.first time ah?.dunno cant rem get so much at one go.
.anyway.[ken] brought a new friend.old friend.[david].
.shouldnt be analysing pple but.man!.he dances freaking well.on DDR anyway.
.*gasp*.havent since anyone dance that well yet.so yups.
.its farnie tho.its like.both [ken] and [david] wore like formal shirt and pants and leather shoes?.and dance DDR?.
.centre of attention.

.[mern]'s pissed with the whole world.
.dun even know what was actually happening?.
.leaving that aside for the moment.

.looking thru ma friendster then going off.
.tml going to [aaj]'s place.tralala.meeting.i dunno why im involved.
.but i guess i wanna be.
.nites peeps.

.merry christmas.
.went out after that.

.still around after browsing blogs and catching up with friends.
.im dying!!.my nose is like set on killing me and make me totally sick.
.its those freaking long sneezes that are totally violent and major.
.wondering why i am describing sneezes.time to move on gurl.

.time to prepare and wrap up my prezzies today.
.already got the op bag [yz] bought for me.
.christmas eve todayy.*cheers weakly*
.kids central has christmas looney tunes shows on.arghs.
.my childhood!!.
.get into the mood girl!!.yure freaking last minute in everything.even christmasy prezzies!!.

.mummy got mee suah for dinner.we brought back a large box of mee suah frm taiping.guess they're famous for that?.
.i shud start eating now.i need something warm.like mee suah.
.and of cos it will be heaven to get a warm hug for a certain someone i dunno who.

.ok im on for too long.mee suah!!.
.and merry christmas to all.

.im back.still sick.

.oh im so glad to just get back.and man i arrive in a mess.pissed with the flight attendant.then the stupid taxi dowan take us.
.oh well.

.went out with [bigbro] and [no2] today.
.my nose is killing me.and i just wonder whether im fit enough to go to church tml.
.walked out.and found out a lot of things.that shouldnt be mentioned here.should pledge to be the official secret keeper.oh well.[pa].im trying hard.grins.

.very sick..*cough*..*cough violently*.
.i should go before i land up in ttsh for SARS.bye.

.missed all yu peeps loads!!.esp yu [pa].merry christmas to yu.hope yu get all yr SLEEP.

.[pa] yu do chu1 yi1.i do shi2 wu3.muahaha.

-ma christmas wishlist-
// a cardigan
// hair clips!!
// a backpack
// more tops
// more bottoms
// the connector to upload and download pics from my phone to my com.I NEED IT!!
// funky flip flops

.to be updated.byee.

.back and off again.

.ahh.im sick.hmm.m'sia newspaper say sg got SARS.like.great.its back.and like what if i get a fever?.im sick and stuff.so what?.customs wun let me come back to sg?.ahh.i freakingly miss sg!!.anyway.i got through the customs.so im fine.yea.
.got down with a cold and cough.result of not sleeping well for the last few weeks.since the mtrip.it has been movie nights.everyday.watched the mtv video awards.and saw madonna and britney kissing.YUCKS!!!.saw JT's face and laughed out loud.haha.then watched terminator 2.another james cameron's piece.very good.yea.
.anyway reached home and was bombarded by msgs of people asking me bout my posting results.like.what the??!!.i havent even checked it!!.oh well.rushed home to check it.got into sr science.whee!!.haha.[cai]'s going there along with me.=)

.my body is failing on me..
.miss a lot of pple.haiz.slackers.churchies.sqdmates.

.nothing else to write.going off tml.flight's at eight.gotta reach the airport at 6.urghs.i hate waking up early.
.will be back on the 23rd.dun miss me peeps.byee.

.off again tomorrow.

.bleh.really tired and stuff today.anyway church was cool today.the worship was simply AWESOME.guess that's one step im taking towards treating worship seriously.yea.lunch had duck rice and fish head with [min] [jon] [rach] [no2] and [min]'s parents.miss sg food alot.and damn the duck rice is always that freaking good.haix.everyone should go try it.its at macpherson way out from cedar.a bit further down the yong tau hu stall which is nearly as nice.
.[ken] came for yf.and was totally distracting us during the whole thing.this excedarian called [weishan] came.and like.hmm feel quite bad cos i wasnt like friendly and stuff to her.pple was thinking that she is crk8.i dunno.but does it matter??.im just not the kind that start talking to new pple i guess.haix.that's BAD.something to improve on.just too much in my comfort zone.needa get out of it.that [weishan] left halfway i think.feel quite bad.urghs.like i chased someone away kinda thing.
.the [cheehong] guy came to talk again.and damn he's good.just that he lost me along the way when [she] started passing notes with [kenny] and [ken] was taking my phone and playing with it.both of our phone got bluetooth and so he was sending stuff here and there from my phone to his and his to mine.and its lame la.gave out loads of prezzies and stuff.quite fun yea.
.finished yf.today open hse my [ma] went and listen and stuff.hmm.it was freaking chaotic and everything.the worship alot of humps and hiccups.but its good la.as in the stuff [mich] said and all.so yups.
.anyway [ken] [no2] and i went over to [min]'s place.cos she cant walk ard in like total stillettos.nice place.new house.yea.and her dog is still humongous.however yu spell it.anyway.took pictures and ate chocolates.very nice chocs.haha.oh ya the dog's name's [choc].haha.
.anyway.[kenny] dun have his merc today.so we took a mrt around.anyway we like went to bugis and walk walk.and ate at swensons.ate only fries cos dowan to spent too much.got my kid to think about..then [min] and [ken] went off.those 3 and [no2] and me went walk around and take neoprint.that stoopid [mern] is like.bullying me the whole night.and need to seek protection from [aar] and [jon].ahhh.anyway left at 830 for home.

.took freaking lots of pictures today.got a pic of most pple that i wanna have pictures of.yea.hmm.[ken] send me a picture of him being too bored on the mrt and taking a picture of himself pointing a middle finger.like what the.thanks ah.
.but really.[ken] is a real nice guy and all.and he is like.motherly.haha.really friendly.and man.them two are.k la.quite perfect match.i tink.hmm.[kenny] putting on weight!!.haha.me driving him crazy telling him the calories in the stuff he is eating.haha.*model f&n student*.and he is getting fairer.[bigbro] got posted into first guards with [ken] and man.who knows what's gonna happen soon.haha.hilarious.[ken] makes a good dajie.and really wonder what [min] will be if he is my dajie?.dun dare think.lOlx.

.cant write anymore.my eyes are closing on me.freaking tired.
.[pa].heard yure sick.take care k?.praying fer ya.=) byee.*hugs*.

.ive got a new phone.

.isnt that like so finally??.haha.hmm.wishing for a freaking colour phone for like eternity.and like yea.i got it.not wanted i always wanted but.its good enough.=)
.went to sk compass point to meet [yz] and arrived there in time even tho i left very late.so i went over to starbucks to find [ganma].and [jerm] was there too.so after [gm] went back to work [no2] and i talk to [jerm] and as usual.he's full of crap.bah.haha.anyway.[yz] was late.so [gm] got us each a peppermint mocha frappucino.and its freezing cold.was shivering and teeth were chattering like crazy in starbucks and [gm] tot i lost my mind.haha.but really i was freezing cold.ok i dechill myself by walking around compass point and went over to m1 look see.and damn!!.6610 for only $18 bucks?.so wanna kill myself.but i wasnt looking for 6610 anymore see?.I WANT A CAMERA PHONE!!.so i checked out the 7250i and it was freaking ex.thinking get new line and then get it cheaper.then went back.and started having doubts.then fine.in the end i decided to get the sony ericsson T610.camera phone.on offer.bluetooth some more.real good deal.so yea i got it at a $278 when the usual price is $428.yea..
.i dun mind this phone so its fine.haha.its nice to get something that is not what everyone else is getting like crazy.but nokia phones are really freakingly easier to use.im still figuring out how to use this phone.
.[yz] later bought me an OP bag for christmas.its grey and pink lining.its nice.and its a sling bag.oh well.its for next year.when i step into my other higher level of education.so wei da huh?.no im not.

.first time in a eon am i using the com near to midnight.damn.and im still awake.konked out yesterday night.till like 10 this morning.so yea.ok should sleep.byee.

.im back.

.haha like finally huh?.hmm.the trip was fantastic.a lot of stuff touched me heart.and my response is to campaign for the kids there!!.support a kid for only 30bucks per month.oh well.missed a lot of pple.here's a list.
// churchies- i miss yu guys.keep me updated on what's up and stuff yea?.
// pa- i aint considering yu churchies these days.freaking missed yu loads cos yu were supposed to go too?.
// my darrrling juniors- haha.yes thanks for those taggies and the bbq food was nice.except the fishballs.and the wings are burnt.and.......ok.the hotdogs were good.jiayou and keep improving on yr cooking skills k?.grins.missed yu guys.
// family- ah duh i miss yu all!!.haha.
// sqdmates- yu all MIA except [sa] izzit?.[sa] dun get too excited bout yr phone and exceed yr plan wor!!.grins.
// slackers club- i am official shopaholic!!.haha.look list below to see what i got and all.grins.

- 7 pairs of slippers.thongs kind.freaking cheap.but din win [bel].she bought 9!!.
- 5 caps.haha.dunno real or not.but real nice.got fubu one.adidas one.and ny one.haha.
- 6 big handmade bags.
- 5 small thai bags.
- 3 thai hand pouches.
- 2 anklets.
- 3 shirts.one armani.one adidas.one cute cute one with cow.for [mian].
- 5 postcards.wrote one out to [ky].so left 4.grins.
- 1 pair hairclips.
- 1 can coke in burmese wordings.
- 1 bottle -jLo still-.damn nice!!.uncle [tony] bought for me at airport.grins.

.this goes straight to [pa].

.yu stupid a**hole.good on pang sehing people right?.yu try doing that for a few more months and see what happens.so fine.everyone's leaving and im stuck here.what the.yu're giving up things that yu are to keep for life for one f**king woman and some other freaking reasons?.i dun see the point.im telling yu without yu ard the whole place sucks k?.no person to find refuge in.and what?.breaking promises to everyone f**king person yu know?.ok fine.yu leave.and then?.yu forget everyone here.izzin that selfish?.is that what He taught yu to do?.i needed yu around and yu werent around.what kind of f**king pa are yu?.so fine.all these decade long friendships can go to the drain.and definitely.i cant trust any guys anymore.i know yu aint gonna be affected by any single word i say.its all my displeasure.and i know no way is yr stubborness ever gonna let yu move any way.even if yu stupid idiotic f**king plan.yea i'm leaving tmr.and yea as if yu'll ever rem me and as if yu'll ever come to send me off.to think that yu're just leaving the place yu grew up in.selfish brat.seeing yu will just make me hurt more.[she] is getting on my nerves.[she] is showing her fangs.[she] is being a complete idiot.it aint yr fault that shes like that.but its yr fault that yu just totally left me here.yu made a promise to [min] that yu'll be friends for life?.now what happened??.i dun wanna be like this one day before i leave.but whatever yu are doing is affecting me a lot.yu have yes loads of frens.and i can easily be placed right smack down bottom.but yu ARE impt to me.always have been.always will be.

.this just my displeasure.know yu wun take any notice of it anyway.bye.
.oh yah.no matter what yu do.i still [yu know in what context] love yu.and still am praying for yu.God bless.perhaps.yu may just bring back a spark from that church.that is.if yu ever come back.

A time to cry and a time to laugh. A time to grieve and a time to dance.
Ecclesiastes 3:4

.last day in Singapore.

.im going off tmr le.hmm.last entry till next friday.need everyone's prayers.yea?.its war.so better go prepared.

.yest watched elf with [gigi] [no2] and [jon].nice yea.haha.hmm.then went to pasta mania eat again.like pasta mania.somewhat anyway.then went to church for band prac.only [jon] and [no2] singing.hmm.so i sit there sing sing a bit and stuff.oh well.met up with [cai] too.she passed [jon] this reel nice clown picture.hmm.

.still wondering about [her].still gets on my nerves and stuff when hearing bout what she is doing around.something bout [bigbro] and [mich] is getting irritating.urghs.guess he went to camp.msg him nv reply.hmm for once my phone bill aint gonna be like very high.i need to get a new phone?.it dropped gazillion times and the whole thing came out when i fell that day.freak.that day went bowling too.had seafood for dinner that day.was good.and yea.=| but [pa] din go.thinking he's avoiding me??.who knows?

.shud go off le.everyone's eyes on my blog.what the.
.ciao.

.grill me.

.the bbq wasnt as fun as i tot it would it.never had much expectations anyway.exma'ams came.that's one thing.and i came back to find out how outdated i was and how messed up the unit is now.*grr*.what's wrong??!!.
.first time i had a bbq where i can just sit in an aircon room.relax.and someone just brings the food up to yu.grins.thanks jiawen.yu've been so nice.*smiles*.

.hmm.nothing much to say le.going off later to [char] and [natty]'s place.they're swimming.cant swim today cos of my injuries.hurts like crazy.so yea.ciaos.

.get out of my head.
.make that jerk get out of my head.

.some people just makes me worried.[pa] is total MIA.must be trying to avoid me.and great.wonder what [min]'s gonna tell him.but trust that [min] is the most power person here.haha.she can convince anyone to do anything.except [bigbro] when he made up his mind.ahh.another guy who worries me.still wondering what's under all that smiles.the more 'normal' he seems the more worried.mean like.everyone has a dark side right?.its like.he only shows his nice guy side?.i know most prob he is generally a nice guy.but what happened in the last 18 years of his life??.yea.
.is there anything else i can do other than pray?.no.

.[mummy]'s asking me bout [pa].and i have totally no idea where the **** he is.hey if yu are reading this.please lah.dun MIA for once can?.miss yu and need to talk to yu lorh.=/ .haix.
.ciao.