.its too horrible i down to face it.

.everything started out fine.churchie as usual was fun and all.[ken] came today.made amazing discoveries about a lot of stuff today.anyway.watched duplex with [min] [ken] [no2].[bigbro] aint himself today.dowan to pry more since he doesnt wanna let me.but i can see he got loads of things in his mind.kinda worried and stuff.good thing me know that he dun read this blog.wonder if [she] reads this..

.something happened.i dowan to say it here cos it most prob will freak pple out and send me to police or counselling or something.unknowingly i became some jerk's object of lust?.just wanna hit myself on the head.where did all the aikido i learnt fly to?.URGHS.anyway i was so occupied about what happened just know.went going down the stairs down to the control station.missed a step.and came tumbling head over heels down.damn embarassing.my phone dropped and the batt came out and stuff.and i suffered like.loads of injuries.blue-blacks.cuts.and felt so bad.cried too.not cos of the pain only.but how terrible i am feeling inside cos of what that jerk did.e only one i told was [bigbro] and he was total practical.and just ask me to get over it.realistic yea.

.it wun leave me for long.but now i will just try to get over it.somehow.
.man know it will hurt.like a lot soon.but.oh well.
.know its satan's way of stopping me frm going.never seen spiritual warfare this close.and on me somemore.
.traumatising.

.try getting over it.but i guess it will scar me for life.=/
.ciao.

.another day for me to slack through.

.what happened after i last blogged.hmm.haha.SLACK.major slack.literally.hmm.it was just on the com whole day kinda thing.then [mern] ask me go church for shanghai nite stuff.and yes duh i rejected him.and he went on with the stupid idea of fetching me and carrying me to church.like yea.oh well.i wanted to watch holland v and stuff.=| anyway i went in the end.cos [no2] gotta go so i gotta escort her.im the big jiejie.=| anyway i just sat around and do nothing.then cut paper for ice breakers.and found out no icebreakers this week.tralala.

.i'm bored.i'm hungry.
.going jamming later.then got a talk.haix.tired.
.byee.

.281103.

.birthday's over le.it was fun.tho there were times where stuff got onto my nerves.but the rest were really fun and really nice.
.met up with [mich] at j8 early in the morning.then with [bigbro] after that.met up with [jac] at bugis.and she was freaking late for like 40 mins.got lost i heard.hmm.anyway.yea changed her bottom and went over to orchard mrt to meet whoever was left.which was like really little and kinda pathetic.anyway.reached there.and [SHE] came.and [SHE] daoed me?.like no hi.no hello.anything.hmm.oh well.i pei [jac] lorh.then [mern] came.he ponned camp to come.oh well.haha.anyway.what happened after that was we went to pines.and it was like.[bigbro] [mich] [HER] in front like freaking in front.and the rest of us behind.
.at pines we went swimming and got addicted to the slide.tried to be very nice to everyone.and oh well.seemed like [SHE] got so much stuff on.and she was crying and all.then was like.she was kinda miserable and stuff.hmm.and i am feeling very extra as usual.then she came over and said sorry to me.for being a spoilsport and a wet blanket and all.=/ actually.she's a poor girl.ok.i should try to like her more.anyway so i hugged her and yea.guess stuff was fine.i was not really talking to [bigbro] yesterday.hmm.like he gotta bother with [mich] and [HER] problems so i guess i better not trouble him more and i should just leave him alone kinda thing.
.we went off at about 530 for orchard for meeting everyone else for dinner.then [bigbro] went off for camp.met up with [min] and [ken] along the way.and they were on the way to buy me a present.lOlx.[cai] and [liss] too.haha.anyway.the presents are really sweet and yea i like them all lots.thanks guys.ok anyway we ate dinner at swensons.it was like 11 of us.and yups.we made the earthquake 'pop' again.whee.haha.then we went to take neoprints and stuff.it was kinda fun.and i literally look identical in all of them.haha.

.went home in [ken]'s car.and we climbed 7 storeys to just get to it.dunno what's wrong man.and as usual.his driving was freaky.but very much less reckless than last time.more people at the back i guess.haha.ok reached home and watch bachelor and tore my presents apart.ahhh.that jenn got chosen!!.she was so much sweeter than that kirsten.kirsten looks like she has some ulterior motive to get close to andrew.oh well.haha.

.[no2] didn't let me use the com yest night so here i am today.yups.ok i'm slacking today at home and i am just gonna do up my PAE and get it over and done with.grins.bye peeps.and thanks for the wonderful birthday.
.PS:some peeps went MIA.slackers club.damn yu all pang seh [jac].gonna get yu all for this one day!!.lOlx.[pa].missed yu dunno where yu went but yea missed yu.hmm.supposedly missing ma parents got they're overseas!!.haha.okok tk care byee.

.happyy birthdaayy to mee.

.have been kinda busy for these few days.gonna break down soon i guess.
.went to [ganma]'s place yesterday.was fun.they dyed my hair and [ganba]'s hair.[ganba]'s full of crap.and totally lame.*must be the genes*.grins.then went to bugis to walk walk and stuff.met up with [jac] to get her swim suit.tralala.
.got back home for my birthday dinner downstairs.and then unexpectedly landed myself at church for backup singing.that's what they do these days.dunno what's wrong.oh well.

.damn man.my nose is killing me.think i'm already sick.help.sneezing and sneezing like crazy.sore throat.and even felt like vomiting.what a way to spend my birthday.oh well.should stop writing le.i'm just gonna die soon.heh.byee.

.back.

.2 days of stress free retail therapy is eating me up.
.sunday was church.churchies were fun as usual.we jammed and stuff.and [jonny]'s back!!.whee.anyway.after yf we went to ps to walk around.and [bigbro] was playing this car racing thing and stuff.man he's real good.lOlx.then had dinner at pasta mania for the first time.was not bad.didn't wanna have to burn more calories so i din finish it.[aron] and [mern] finished them up.oh well.

.monday went to pines with [bigbro].cudn't go to the gym cos my sis and i were underaged.so we went to play in the pool.the slide was real real fun!!.ok i tot it was kinda kiddy at first?.but ended up it was so fun i played it 3 times.or 4 i think.oh well.then we were just sitting in the pool and talking and stuff.then we had lunch there and everything.the food wasn't bad.had a pizza and potato wedges.[bigbro] took a whole caesar salad himself.and he finished it.haha.then he went to meet up with [her].we went to meet up with [min].and man i luv that gurl.she gives the word and [bigbro] comes down to orchard from suntec to meet us.with [her].and how much more irritating can that get??!!.my sister went off before that.so it was me with [min] and [her] with him.we were trying very much to speak to them.and [she] just keep clinging onto him like a koala bear.like.HELP.[min] was huntin for a handbag and stuff.and they were just tagging along and stuff.[she] practically ignored [min] and i.and [she] just kept talking to him only.both of us were getting totally disgusted.[min] chased [bigbro] home and of course [her] too.and it was left with both of us.and yes we had the same purpose.to get rid of [her] and not [bigbro].urghs.oh well.

.i AM trying hard to like her [pa].but [she] ain't really helping.

.worried for [bigbro] that he doesn't know what he is actually doing?.haix.[min] say she'll talk to him.so hope she does.he needs to know he's getting himself into something complicated.
.[min] and [ken] are happily together.but the big disturber of peace called [jyang] is unreasonably against them being together and totally detest [ken]?.i dun see the point.but.cmon [kenny] is a nice guy and all.

.class bbq was fine.met cai there too.she was having a chalet for her tuition class and stuff.went to j8 today and bought a two piece swimming suit.j8 is totally crowded with all the year end sales and new shops.hmm.yea.

.anyway was out a lot and stuff.glad that i'm back on the net le!!.lOlx.okok this is one long entry.byee.

.call me tiger-ball now.

.yikes.my hair has streaks of orangey brown red copper..went to highlight it today.at colour house.hmmm.it was kinda freaky.to think its the first time its professionally dyed.parents still dunno bout it yet.wondering if they are gonna freak out soon.hmmm.

.slackers club members are shopaholics.lOlx.how many detours we made today to look at stuff.i seriously dunno.urghs.anyway.neopets were at isetan at shaw.and mans.there is like this whole string of pple all queuing up to have a picture drawn.hmm.really nice and stuff.and there were two artists and the creator i tink.this nice pretty lady.yea.anyway.most pple were like about our age or even older.shows that neopets ain't for kids only.anyway.we bought a plushie for [jac].a flowery aisha i tink.quite sweet.bought a poogle for [no3].know she adores neopets and stuff.hmm.
.walked a lot of places today.man.first time i realise i do know how to shop.hmm.[rach] was with us and [alan lau] was like waiting for her somewhere and stuff.hmmm.walked shaw.far east plaza.taka.wisma.heeren.went without lunch.or should i say.forgot to eat lunch cos of shopping.haha.[sheni] bought ferrero for us.din know [rach] was coming.so in the end i went without it.haha.
.saw [alan lau] after that.looked the same as in the class photo.hmm.i dun like him.haha.said that we wun meet.but yet we did.tsk tsk.oh well.
.[jac] and i went home at 4.hmm.met up at 10.so its like 6 hours?.haha.anyway.saw a group of street buskers doing drums.got myself an n-gage balloon.and saw [tls1] and [tls3] at paragon.SA military band performed carols.lOlx.

.tired.but now going out again.chalet.whee.=) byee.

.new pic.new music.

.2nd post of the day.now yu can imagine how bored i am.
.[mum].[no2] and [no3] at chalet.me and [dad] home.kinda quiet.my dad and i dun usually talk much.
.been like that for kinda long time.dun know when it actually started.hmm.always thought that yea we two are kinda alike and stuff.and yes i look like the replica of him and stuff.BUT.just feel like we are just kinda far away.but further than how we were last year.but i guess.he still loves me and i love him and that is all that matters.

.the song doesn't suit that lil girl.the lil girl is far from getting addicted.maybe should just put sk8er boy up or something.

.heard from [goof-ball] that there's this forum on straits times that was proposing that ns men should all wear sunglasses?.lOlx.supposed to like protect them from flying debris and UV rays and stuff.imagine all the guys marching out in ndp all wearing shades.will laugh my head off.maybe it'll all be like.'welcome to the real world' kinda stuff.urghs.haven't watched matrix revolutions.feeling kinda slow.it came out real long ago??!maybe will just buy the vcd like next time.then i'll get to watch all three together.

.LotR marathon tickets are totally wiped out of the market.and the news was only mentioning bout it yesterday?.never a LotR fan.but oh well.maybe will just watch it after everything comes out and my uncle buys the dvd and yea i will watch.grins.haha.

.someone just tell me what song to put here??!!.ok.shant crap.visiting my friendster and od and off i go.need some sleep.mugged f&n till 1 yesterday.first time in all 'o's papers.

.bubye.

.its over.

.some tell me what's wrong with my IE?.using netscape now.but really i miss using iE.urghs.

.like finally 'o's is over.had a terrible time waiting.and the 2 hours just went past like.that.tsk tsk.
.will be finally let my hair down.like as if i have any hair to let down.going to the buskers fest tml at orchard and go dye hair at colour house.dunno how good it will be but.*smiles*.all i have is time.haha.at least for these few days.
.mon will be the class bbq.then the sleepover till tue.then retail therapy will [min] and [jce].wed out with [ganma].thurs my pool party.haha.

.and [jac].who cares whether i ranting.its MY blog.*grins*.tk care slacker.

-countdown: 6 days- yea.

.cheers.

.urghs.

.this is so irritating.my IE is on this closing down spree.one window hangs.the rest closes down with it.screw my com.

.anyway.was saying that i'll finish my mineral chapter and some other useless topics that i wasn't paying attention to when those fnn teachers were teaching.and some topics i missed cos of my 5 days leave that time.grins.

.wanna go retail therapy soon.and my pool party.gonna be kinda big i think.like quite a lot of pple.fun.
-countdown to my birthday: 1 week- grins.

.ciao.

.lazy pig lazy pig lazy pig.

.woke up at 1145.

.hmm.[big bro] and i are fine.i asked him.like.'am i still yr lil sis?'.and he replied.'haha dun be silly. if yu aren't why would i still be in charge of the gathering?'.
.i love my big brother.=)

.my wrists are starting to hurt again.excessive use of the computer and fone.urghs.think it will be never be better.unless i dun touch the com the fone and a pen for at least half a year.yea like what else can i dO?.working out uses my wrists too.urghs.

.hmmm.still searching for some nice pic for the blog.have no idea still.[mum] was like.not happy cos she dowan me to look at this kinda pictures?.oh well.urghs.now my desktop is a pic of a lil girl crying cos she has a band-aid on her finger.real cute.[mum] didn't wan those kissin pics.so i gave her a crying pic.nearly drove her crazy.oops.

.gonna be one of the last few to finish 'o's this year.f&n is stupid.teachers dun spot questions?.and do some stupid revision cards that we just went to photocopy.that's why we're the slackers club.grins.

.dreamt of buying adidas superstar at S$74.90 and a bikini.haha.now yu know why i didn't wanna wake up till 1145.and like as if i'll get them for my birthday.

-countdown to birthday: 8 days-haha.byee.

.dowan to put this pic up.but.i'm just looking for some pic to put up.and i getting frustrated.so leaving this up for a while.anyone have any nice picture i can put.just leave me a taggie.yuppers.byee.

.i wan my big brother back.

.mean like he's so nice.i'm plain paranoid.and take rships so lightly.
.admit i'm like blinded by jealousy and stuff.but still.feel that there are some stuff that aren't really to be shared.but.in this case.a little is better than none.or will that lil bit make yu thirsty for more?.trying the mindset of thinking that the little bit is everything.that is.if he still wants me back.

.truth's out.i disowned him.ahhhhhhhhhhhhh.wanna strangle myself for it.WHAT FOR??.

.amaths is over.was ok.wun die.1 more paper to go.that's all.

.i so dowan to touch geog for the rest of my life.

.geog e was stupid stupid stupid.it was difficult.not all that difficult.but still.urghs.din finish again.

.cleared up everything with [pa].we're fine.

.found out from no2 that [big bro] has another lil sis.and its HER.
.realise i got this thing against her.dunno why.but.its just the vibes and guts stuff.also kinda angry bout what she did to [pa] and stuff.[pa] yu read this.pls dun get angry.its just how i'm kinda feeling.
.got those feeling-robbed feeling.like.me ain't special to [big bro] anymore.remembered me fight with this girl called yanshuang over [simon] last time.oh that was stupid.*roll eyes at own stupidity*.

.time to go.its just 2 more papers.

.|[angel]|. yu know when yu treasure someone too much..
.|[angel]|. yu dun let that person change
.|[angel]|. cos yu are scared that they might not be the same anymore?
-darwin. the more u try to dn let the person change. the more u r making the person dn like you.
-darwin. wad is meant to be is meant to be
.|[angel]|. yu tie them down so much
-darwin. why in the first place?
.|[angel]|. but if yu see that the person ain't going the right way?
-darwin. haha. u dn change the person.
-darwin. u guide the him.
|[angel]|. they dowan get guided?
-darwin. tink abt it
-darwin. if they dn want to be guided
-darwin. wad makes u tink u can change em?
.|[angel]|. damn..just cant stand this kinda thing
.|[angel]|. its just me la
-darwin. haha.dn worry lar.everyone has their chrcter traits.
-darwin. thats why.pple get along and break up in the end
.|[angel]|. cant it ever be everlasting?
-darwin. haha..well. wad is relationship? i dunno.
-darwin. i only know one thing. u nid commitment frm each other.
.|[angel]|. i aint in a rship.
.|[angel]|. its just..frens
-darwin. angel
-darwin. ure so young.
-darwin. if r tied dwn in a relationship.
-darwin. ok
-darwin. nvm
at this point he realised that i was NOT ina rship.asked him to cont what he would say if i AM in a rship
-darwin. i myself dn really believe in everlasting relationship.
-darwin. i dn tink anione can ever like u noe . have commitment for the rest of ure life to the partner.
-darwin. lets sae at this age.
.|[angel]|. uh huh. ok i get it
-darwin. i dn like pple to sae abt marriage
.here it became his views on marraige.haha.man i luv yu dar.lOlx.
-darwin. i see them sae
-darwin. i like wanna puke.
-darwin. cus. u noe u aint gonna marry. u aint gonna have her in the end. u noe u gonna break up. why make promises in the first place.
-darwin. and when u break up. all the promises become injuries , and lies in the end.
-darwin. for wad. at this age. hw many wud even marry each other.
-darwin. i dunno lehs. its like. i c pple get into the relationship
-darwin. they put so much in it. in the end break up. and cry cry cry.
-darwin. and its like. u can like the guy so much . but the guy can like u just a bit.
-darwin. thats whyy . dn tink anione is like love each other like equally? one has to give out more then the other.

.sound like some counsellor?.shows that [dar] grew up.=) tk care boy.love ya.haha.

.[dom] i am so gonna screw yu.

.sound pissed?.i AM.ok i dun wanna start another drama-mama sequel of our life story or something.*roll eyes*.whatever i am talking about.urghs.just.nvm.mind's in a mess.

.woke up.studied my geog e.then went out with no2 and [big bro].had a good time yes.and like what the.i am thinking too much maybe.but yups he like no2 better than no1.there's something bout biasness today.*roll eyes*.still i enjoyed myself.so let that rest.then went over to cg.he's A-N-T-I-S-O-C-I-A-L today.everyone's so enthu today it gets on my nerves.urghs.what's with me again.ok.thanks guys for getting me a cake and all.real sweet and stuff.but i ain't in birthday mood yet.know what i mean?.i have 3 more papers to go??.

.and YU.soooooooooooo meeeeeeeeean to me today.so nice ask yu to come my birthday and yu turn me down so so so flat straight??.yu tink i yr punching bag izzit??.like yu just dowan anything to do with me ever again.FINE.yr choice.yu wanna forego 10 years.YR CHOICE.if yu are just saying like.on a moment's impulse.watch YR words.yu dunno how hurtful they may get.yes sarcasm is the thing these days.but those that give yu a right to hit people that way?.maybe i'm just too weak.OH WELL.

.someone dial woodbridge?.or just screw me up a bit.or a lot.URGHS.clear it up with me will YU?.

.going kinda crazy.but yea.lOlx.

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.too much?.sue me.cheers.

-free- hillsongs

verse 1
would you believe me if i said
that we are the ones who can make the change
in the world today
would you believe me if i said
that all of your dreams in your heart
can come true today
would you believe me if i said
that life could be all that you want it to be today

chorus
and if i had wings i would fly
'cause all that i need, you are
and if the world caved in around me
to You i'd still hold on
cause You're all that i believe
and the one that created me
JESUS.. because of you.. i'm free

verse 2
would you believe me if i said
that God can make miracles happen today
would you believe me if i said
that you dont need to wait for the answers before
you step out in faith
would you believe me if i said
that nothing is ever IMPOSSIBLE.. for God..

Bridge
just live your life.. with God inside
you wont regret one moment of it
and give all that you can for God... for God

.my hair's damn short now.

.muahaha.its a reel long story.its like on wednesday i went to QB le.then i reach home and bathed.and realise that my hair is like not long not short and no differences.so IN A MOMENT OF IMPULSE.i asked my mum to cut my hair for me.like shorter.and guess what.it was like.SHORT.freaked out for a while.but after that its kinda nice so yups.haha.went to school.came back and cut again.like even shorter.i can't even grab the hair behind.*sniff*.someone teach me to gel hair??!!.

.bio is kinda ok.should be able to get a B.at least.hmm.chem paper one sucks like crazy.ITS MCQ.and i still can't do it well.=/ anyway.paper two was fun.started with a crossword puzzle.like wow.haha.i din know cambridge has a life.lOlx.oh well.the whole paper was like about speed of reaction and electrolysis.i am kinda ok at those.so yups winning end.i'll survive.yea.

.had dinner with [pa] and his family yesterday.my dad's birthday dinner.yuppers.today's his birthday and my mum's side all came over.oh well.haha.

.went swimming today afternoon.man there is all these cute guys with real nice tan body and figures.aww.ok i shudn't be looking too much.next time go to [big bro]'s club and swim.fun fun.

.ok got bugged to buy chicken rice for my lil cute cuzzie.hee.okok.byee.

.we just nv clicked from the beginning.

.told [al] that.big fat jerk.wah say what going to be monk.like as if.*roll eyes*.well i kinda pissed him off.here's how.

he: so what cca yu frm? where yu live?
me: no cca and dowan say where i live.
he: why yu dowan answer my qns one?
me: y shud i?.besides i dun even know how the h*ll yu look like and who the f*sh yu r.
me: what yu scared of me le?
he: not really.i just dun really like yr tone.
me: well i dun like yu probing too.
he: ok..my fault..forget it..
me: forget it.we just nv clicked from the beginning.
.damn.feeling kinda proud of myself!!.haha.

.went to cut hair at QB.still no diff to my hair.freak.anyway.gonna do some drastic change to my hair like after os.till like even [big bro] will freak out.muahaha.ok i'm evil.lOlx.

.had a good time having the room to myself last night.no2 was at camp.wee.hmm.no3 wanted to slp with me.but at about 11++ she went out and nv came back.oh well.

.made cheesecake!!.quite successful.just that it was kinda sweet.added coffee in there.so the smell was really nice and stuff.grins.oh well.should go off le.tml's bio.

.some pple say that sex edu should be considered as an o level subject.i just hope there's no practical.byee.

.yu can't forget.and yu wun either.

.[dryma] gave me such wise words.as usual.like.'dun pay unkindness with unkindness..love him with a Godly love no matter how many wrongs he does to yu'.'true friends stick to each other no matter what'.like yea as if he treats me like one.'things turn out this way cos there is a much better person for yu than him and God sees yr pain'.'y put yrself thru the misery knowing that it was a deep well to dive in with him at the start'.and i so wonder why i put myself thru all this at the first place.*foolish*.
.knew that i am gonna put in a lot of my time.emotions.efforts.energy.into this.and it left me vulnerable to anything or any 'attacks' he actually set onto me.know that everything might not be on purpose and stuff.its foolishness on my part.

.hmm.msged [al] on my pp.and found out how big a jerk he can be.gurls fer him is like.routine.to think that i actually liked him once just makes me feel disgusted.urghs.shud hv like just ignore him all the way.made up a 2nd identity and stuff.ahhh so hate myself.only know how to screw things up and not unscrew them.*bish myself*.

.[big bro] had been real nice to me and stuff.patient and yea.even tho i did make him pissed.*i made everyone pissed*.haix.just hope i dun screw this rship up too.

.plans for after 'o's:
- go out like out out out out out
- go m trip
- go malacca
- go penang
and shop shop shop shop shop!!..
.shop all my money my frustrations my stress my anxiety away.

.someone just kill me?.

.i just wanna forget.

.yesterday night was.traumatizing.its like.urghs.kinda diff to recall.and painful too.like.its mostly on anger impulse and hurt.hmm.its like.urghs.dowan to recall.
.finally admitted something.and stopped denying myself.and everyone else.

.didn't get to screw up my amaths.but realised i did get screwed in my chinese.showed my mum the paper.and pointed out so many freaking mistakes.so fine.still got stuck with my freaking a2.
.amaths didn't screw.wanted to.but i guess it was foolish to do that just for one person.i did my best.for God.for myself.for my family.for cedar4n03.for slackers club.for [big bro].so ya.

.[kennedy] has friendster.*gasp*.pic right on top was pic of him and [min].looks good.hmm.still can't believe [ching] told that i like him.*roll eyes*.oh well.

.dun think too much.get my cheese cake recipe.try redeeming something frm m1.urghs.no paper till thurs.bio and chem.
.wish me luck.

.found another cool verse..

And be sure of this: I am with you always, even to the end of the age.
Matthew 28:20

cheerios.

.got the 'Q' bear frm macs!!.

.didn't realise the craze till like 2 days ago??.and its kinda sweet and stuff.sad thing is that i realise it too late to get the 'A' bear.so can't get [angel].get [qi] lo.lOlx.hmm.

.yups churchie today.kinda fun.had m trip training.fun fun!!.roommate is [belle].haha.was thinking like its gonna be so so fun?.then auntie [ws] is gonna move to our room too.=/ oh well.nvm.there's still mtv channel there!!.lOlx.remember watching saving private ryan there and turning it into a comedy.haha.

.service was cool.talking bout like coveting other pple's stuff.and yups.hmm.realise haven't really been praying for [pa].haix.he seemed like he's gonna murder pple today.face chao black.msg him oso dowan reply.hmm.maybe just leave him to cool then.yea.anyway.found a real cool verse.[pastor] was reading that verse before the prayer.hmm.
surely the arm of the Lord is not too short to save, not His ear too dull to hear. but your iniquities have separated you from your God; your sins have hidden His face from you, so that He will not hear.
Isaiah 59:1-2

.yea had lunch with the usual peeps.at macs.[big bro] was talking bout chocolate cakes and ahhh.so nice.make me tempted.ok i'll have that as my birthday cake.haha.dunno whether they had the 31dec dinner going well.hmm.told aunty [lh] and aunty [mary] i screwed my papers.and my mum ain't worried.and seriously she ain't.she's relaxed.like me.*grins*.haha.

.12 more days to the end of 'o's.tml's amaths paper one.just hope i dun screw.

.guys are cuter than numbers.
.they ARE.

.freak.got reminded of the 31dec dinner.I DOWAN TO GET INVOLVED.so STOP BUGGING ME!!.urghs.and i dowan to talk about anything that is gonna happen after the 'o's other than pae and going out and going out and going out.no life rite?.

.did nothing much other than reading up my formulas.[big bro] got out of his camp.went shopping with parents and stuff.haix.like i can't go out.=/ yet.

.spend a lot of time making cards for pple.like [daryl] [tls1] [big bro] [pa] [jce] [diana].like thank yu cards and stuff.maybe should start a business after that.*wishful thinking*.

.will go back to amaths soon.wish me luck.

.i shouldn't have studied.

.chinese paper today.woke up like extreme late.6.30.and still early in school.hmm.everyone is coming later and later.cool.

.paper one was ok.hmm.its kinda funny.i said i wanted to write about digging something.and haha.i did.[big bro] said he was like digging and making obstacles at field camp.so haha.i took that idea of digging stuff from him.and haha.wrote about digging well for my village.haha.*lame*.

.had like 4 hours doing nothing before the second paper.so went to pp mac sat there and talk and study here and there.hmm.kinda boring but oh well.haha.started oggling [him].and saying how great [he] is.wu2 yao4 ke3 jiu4 le.so long and still crushing him.like kinda stupid.nothing takes the taste out of peanut butter like unrequited love.

.paper 2 was stupid.shouldn't even have studied.the ones in there i was like.at the back of my head kinda thing.so yea.din screw.just felt stupid.

.at 7-11 for like 1 1/2 hour talking to [fiqa].haha.she paid for my pp card top up.so sweet eh.she's a nice gal man.

.mum's side all coming over today.mee siam.my recipe.ciao.

.haha for once i din screw up.

.emaths paper was kinda like.easy?.hmmm.knew how to do.except a 2 marks question on shear.and that curve question that like made my day.lOlx.the irritating curve does not even tally with any theory.gradient was different from when yu do differentiation.*amaths screwedup kid*.maybe its my differentiation.my first time was wrong too.=/

.tralala.talking to [pa] yest and he was telling me to watch out for my no2 sis.hmm.he's kinda worried that she might care too much of the outward that she dun grow up in maturity and stuff.=/ hmm.kinda worried too.know she is like kinda materialistic and stuff.

.[pa] screwed.and say he is retakin 'o's next year with [min].haix.worried for him also la.like finally there is something i dun screw and yet he still screw.haix.dunno what to tell him to make him feel better and stuff too.urghs.haix.to think that i demoralise him more than encourage him.

.on the way home on the bus.then the marists came up.remembered i tink [mel j] told me that marists are either fat or thin.and this whole group like majority are hunks.man.ok i ain't supposed to have a good impression of marists.*roll eyes*.remember [wes] is enuf a nightmare for me le.urghs.

.getting back to my shou3 ce4 after lunch.wish me luck.

.woke up on the wrong side of the bed today.

.woke up at 8.went toilet.came back.plonked down.and slept again.till like 11.*pig*.

.kinda like did nothing the whole day.except like.half of a paper2 in the emaths tys and one locus question which i f**king freaked out on.answers all different.and like the last 2 big big parts dunno how to do.*freaked*.
.then studied some chinese.kinda stupid.i was sitting there with my ci2 yu3 shou3 ce4.and my mum was calling out numbers.and i was only studying the pages she called out.then kenna allergy to the dust on the shou3 ce4.*roll eyes*.either my nose is too sensitive today or i just never touched my shou3 ce4 for too long a time.=/ .must be the latter.

.good thing i din take lit.if not i would have screwed today's paper.[pa] kinda screwed it up.and stuff.so yups.good luck man.
.[big bro] at field camp.coming back only on friday.gonna miss him.

.off to check out the rest's blogs and stuff.ta.

.today's a kinda screwed up papers day.

.english so totally screwed.
.started with this whole formal letter which i have no idea wat i am talking about myself.then there was the compo.where its like.i chose a weird qn.about my favourite sounds and stuff.kinda farnie.cos its like.felt like i'm repeating myself again and again.
.compre sucks.like.no confidence.then my summary.was fine.but cut so much.then didn't have time to rewrite.so its like still in a mess.haix.

.ss is worse.yes.whatever [mrs lim] predicted came out.and i still din do well.
.se causal was fine.just spent too much time on it.
.judgmental was screwed-up.literally.i din even know it was a judgmental question.and its like.i din say whether i agree or not.and i din say whether to a large extent.screw!!.
.sb was fine.except that.i din have time to finish the last qn.and only did like one cross reference.

.should just go die rite now.*shrugs*.usual.

.so freaked at as usual.pissed a lot of people for the last week.then found out it was pms.cool huh?.loser.usual.was about to get totally paranoid at all times.thanks to like.[pa].[big bro].who just dun mind my cranky self.hmm.or like readily forgive me after pissing them off.man.i love those guys.

.this is just another screwup blog of mine.kinda sadist.i dun wanna influence yu to thinking negative.so if yu are the happy one.go on.click back.